Last week my therapist said that as painful as grief is, it's reflective of how much you loved someone. My optimism about Tubs' ability to recover from his illness didn't keep him alive. He passed away at home, in my arms, while I was feeding him. It was traumatic. I was wracked with guilt. I … Continue reading Grief Reflects Love
Pain is often expressed through art. We can point to exhibitions of torment across almost all mediums, but comedy is an area where it's still uncomfortable to explore difficult topics. There's a social understanding that certain topics are off limits. If a comedian speaks about loss, suicide, or their own mental illness there's a chance that … Continue reading Comedy Can Be Cathartic
Food is comforting for many of us. Whenever we feel sad, stressed or lonely we try to stuff the feeling down by finishing an entire bag of chips, eating an entire frozen pizza, and a whole pint of ice cream (if you can't tell, these three in that order are my regular comfort food combo). … Continue reading Separating Food from Feeling
It is an understatement to say that I was a troubled teen. I was dramatic, volatile and vulnerable. I made bad decisions that could have had worse results. I would meet much older boys and men that I had barely chatted with online. Alone. It was like To Catch a Predator, only Chris Hansen never … Continue reading Marked.